Tuesday, July 7, 2020

Breaking bad habits

So I haven’t really had a lot going on other than cleaning and yard work, so I thought I’d go about this kind of different tonight. I also have a few things I need to get off my chest. 

As all know, Vi is my sassy pants. She’s my unicorn baby and is also a sweet and loving girl. Since school has been “out” (I say that loosely because covid and summer blend into one) she’s been acting out more. If she doesn’t get her way she’s been throwing some pretty epic fits. I also think she’s just tired! She doesn’t sleep well. 

I had a very bad habit of hanging out in the kids’ room until they were asleep. I have broken that-finally-with the three youngest. Isabelle is still struggling. Viola has never been a fabulous sleeper. From day one of coming home from birth she was always up all night. She still wakes up multiple times. I usually get so frustrated that I either A-sleep on her floor and sneak out or B-let her sleep in our bed. Both habits are now an immediate no-as of last night. Ryan and I had a solid argument about shutting our door for the night. I won’t lie-it was hard for me. I’ve always been close by to all the kids and now we’re on different levels its admittedly harder for me. BUT! It went somewhat ok though! I heard footsteps around 1 am-turns out Henry got a bloody nose and couldn’t find wipes. I helped him out, got Vi back into her bed-she’d moved in on Adrian-and I went back to my room. That was it. I’m hoping tonight is smoother for me and less stressful. 

I created these habits all on my own. I guess a part of me is holding on to them being little for longer than they need to be. I can’t blame anyone else and I know that. I’ve tried a lot of new things. I use the melatonin gummies, a weighted blanket and nice calming smells to ease into sleep for Vi- and Iz too. Some nights work better than others. 

If anyone else has any ideas please send them my way! I know I was somewhat of a stubborn sleeper but I also vividly remember the night I made it all night without my mom and never looked back! 
So any who. Just had to get that off my chest. 

Until next time! 

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