High emotions

Today I have found myself to be all over the place in my emotions. Granted, being stuck at home with the kids is undoubtably hard, but not having our normal routine is SO much harder. 

I miss the nights when all the kids were out and asleep by nine at the latest. Lately, my oldest isn’t even asleep by 10:30 if I’m lucky. As time rolls on and the days grow longer, it’s much more difficult to get them to come inside for the night-the boys especially. 

During my walk this morning I was watching the latest Disney home sing along that aired on Mother’s Day. I ket feeling like I was going to break out crying while singing along. I tried hard to shove those emotions aside. I always do. It’s my nature to ignore myself and put everyone else first. Before I knew it, it was 2 in the afternoon. I was cozied up with the girls watching a show. I crashed. My overly exhausted self caught up and I took my first nap in I don’t know how long. I felt better after. My head was clearer, and I was ready to take on the evening. 

I think the best part of my day was getting a surprise sign to have in my yard by our ever amazing PTO from school. It made my day. Like really made it. As cheesy as it sounds I freaking love my job and we’re all family there. I miss it something fierce. I want my normal back. I want my kids’ normal back. Change isn’t usually hard for me. This is though. And this is why my emotions are all over this week. 

If you’re feeling it too, I’m here with you. We’re all in it together. Hopefully for not much longer! 

So until tomorrow we will all remain strong. We’ve got this and I’ve got this. 💜💛💜💛