Life with 6: Mommy hood

Being home all day doesn't mean I don't just sit and do nothing. If I could record my entire day via video footage (which is actually a great idea!) rather than pictures I feel like I would get a lot more understanding of how hard it is to be a stay at home mom.

I mean seriously-I cannot even tell you the last time I have gone to the bathroom without an audience! I don't get to ever just sit and relax and have alone time. Unless all kids are in bed. But by that point I'm so tired I fall asleep myself so it hardly counts. :-)

I would give anything to go back to my job! Sometimes I want to pull out my hair. I drive myself mad with how upset I allow myself to get sometimes. I find myself constantly telling myself "she's only 4"! I know I'm not alone in this...yet I get caught up in the moment. I'm lucky beyond the stars to have these three as my babies and I want only the best for them and I sometimes think I'm not doing it well enough-even though I know I am.

I live such a crazy life that I can't keep everything straight anymore. I forget what day it is quite often. Because I don't sleep well at night, I often doze off while rocking Henry to sleep for his morning cat nap...I know-bad mommy. Other days or mornings I do awesome. Today I had a good morning. I cleaned some, did a load of laundry (NOT by choice-you do the math), cleaned the bathroom, and spent time with the kids.

I'm realizing more that if I don't spend more time with them I will miss this so much when they grow up.

This mommy hood life style goes so fast. To the point of it can depress me sometimes because I'm selfish and don't want my kids to grow up. I want them to snuggle with me and be cute forever.

I pick my big girl up from school and she tells me she has "papers" for me . Today she really did. Wednesday is picture day.

Where is my baby going! It kills me seeing her grow and change into this smart beautiful girl!

I love her. I love Vi and Henry. I wouldn't change anything that I have done or that Ryan has done in our raising them. Our life is FAR from perfect, but what is perfect.

I'm a mommy, a teacher, a friend, a wife, daughter, and a person who is trying hard to remember to just take it one day at a time. To live my life stress free (idk if that will ever be possible), and make what matters most to me the priority- my family!