I feel like when I look around me I'm not getting anywhere. By that I think what I'm trying to say is house work, kid-parent interaction, spouse time. I've never felt so overwhelmed before. I really do not get time to stop and think. If there were more hours in a day it would be better.
My biggest issue is the balance. I know I mentioned it before, but this week has been extra hard, and I think it's because I'm so aware of what I want to do and better it but can't figure out how- is driving me mad. I want to have alone time with each kiddo, but that time balance is still an issue with me. I'm trying hard, but today I feel like a failure.
I found myself asking myself what's happening here. It feels like the kids are running me and I hate that. I'm trying hard to hold my ground, but it's exhausting when I'm alone for most of the day.
Ugh
I don't know how to say it all without sounding selfish or mean. I love my kiddos a lot, but lately it's just down right rotten to be around them when they're in a mood. I know all parents alike feel this, but it's just been heavy on my mind today.
Looking back and reading this I know it's one hundred percent a venting blog tonight. For that I apologize. I need to get it out.
The one thing I enjoyed most today-the storms. It thundered literally all day. I love, loved it!
Until tomorrow!!
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