Snip snip

Well Ryan went in to the doctor today and was officially snipped. We will no longer have babies. I know nothing is never 100% effective, but we both knew and agreed Adrian would be the last. We wanted him, but wanted to wait longer-he had other plans. 

So Ryan feels ok. He's actually cleaning the garage right now. While he snoozed a bit this afternoon I did some thinking. 

1-no more being pregnant. Ever. It's weird to think. I won't feel baby kicks or jabs ever again. Have cravings. Breastfeed after Adrian's done (that part is kind of ok with me), get sick or have swollen feet! 

2-it's really neat to look back and see how different and alike each pregnancy was. Adrian made this last time a trip! Coming out with a bang sealed the deal for us! I don't ever care to be in a hospital setting like that ever again! 

3-the amount of love I have for each person we've created grows more each day. Even though most days I wanna pull my hair out, small moments make my heart grow more. Today-Adrian actually focused his eyes! Kind of a big deal to me.

And finally

4- I'm glad Ryan loves me enough to do that. Taking pills is annoying and now we really know we won't have to worry! So thanks babe! Side note-when we had Adrian we had papers signed for me to tie my tubes if I needed a c-section. Obviously that didn't happen. 

So like I said Adrian focused his eyes today. Not on the book (he actually still can't see that far), but when Iz popped up in his face, I noticed he did a quick 1-2 second focus. I was/still am a little nervous with his focusing as of yesterday. I feel like one eye looks lazy and I told our AEA worker yesterday. So we're watching it. I could have victory danced!!  

Until tomorrow!!