One month

Our tiny mighty is a month old today! I can't believe our small unexpected miracle has been here that long already. He is our last and has come into our lives with a bang. 

What I can tell you in the last month is that I have learned to never expect things to go your way. 

1.The routine we had was altered so greatly, I've had a very hard time getting it back-if I ever do I'll be shocked. 

2. Managing time for the other three has been a huge challenge. Adrain requires a lot (even though he sleeps a lot). When he doesn't need something I feel rushed to get stuff done and take care of things I need for myself (ie-a shower, pumping or even going pee).  To say the least I'm working on figuring a balance out. Someone told me I looked as if I really had it together with all four. I laughed at her. Not kidding. I also told her I don't. She said I did a good job making it look like I did. I guess I'll take that! 

3. Nothing will be the same. By that I mean I worry all the time. Sure Adrian is healthy and a good size, but that doesn't mean he won't have issues in the months to come. I get nervous taking him anywhere. I get nervous if people want to touch him. Winter will be hard and I can only hope he doesn't have health issues. 

This first month has brought on so many different emotions. I've been very happy since he's been home. I've been nervous, anxious, exhausted (beyond measures), and most of all over joyed. It makes my heart happy that the other three love him so much! 

We will see how much he grows this next month and I'm excited to see how much stronger he gets. 

This fella had his first hair cut this morning he did so awesome. He just sat there and didn't care! He looks so handsome!

Until tomorrow!