A letter to Adrian

When I was first admitted to the hospital I was given a binder all about the nicu, what to expect and so on. Well there's a part in the back that I can keep track of all the daily changes and things that are happening. There's also a journal spot and today I've felt rather emotional and decided to write a letter to Adrian. I want to share it. 

Adrian,

  As we are almost to your one week birthday, mommy has had so many emotions this week. I have never felt myself will power someone so much as I have you. I will my body to give you the best through each feeding. We all want you to come home so badly, and my emotions are all over. Some days I'm good, other times I cry because it's incomplete without you. Your sisters don't fully understand, but can't wait to have you home. 

  You are so perfect in so many ways. You are strong and have so much strength and we all know you're a fighter! So many people are praying for you and love you. You've come so far in a week! We love you sweet boy! 

So that's my letter. 

I'm happy to say he is 100% iv free! He nursed so well this morning that they adjusted his tube feeding from 30 to 15 mls!! I am so proud of him for that. He is up an oz in weight at 4 11 now! Still tanning under the lights, so today we've decided he's in sunny Hawaii!  Those are the only changes. We still need him to poop more! 

Big kiddos had a picnic lunch at the park with Grammy!! And after I got home I did some cleaning and we played outside again. 

Adrain drank an entire bottle for Ryan tonight! 1 oz and that's huge!!!! 

Until tomorrow!!!